Midol and the X-Files

     Ok, the season start is now only 4 days away. Yes, I'm going as crazy as you. I've been forced to watch my tapes and I only watch my tapes when I need an X fix. Help! 4 days! ARGH!!! Well, last night I had some major cramps (if your a woman you'll understand) so I couldn't sleep. And I was going nuts because I couldn't talk to my S.O. (he's more then a boyfriend now). And since I couldn't think of any good story ideas, I just started typing. Now remember when you read this...I was on Midol and that stuff makes my thoughts all messed up.

     Chris Carter, the amazing Chris Carter, came along with The X-Files and then later with Millennium. I've watch as Mulder went crazy to find Scully and then again when she came back. I've watch Scully stand on the verge of believing only to turn back and be more determined then ever to prove something with science. I watched Mulder's reaction to Scully cancer. Cheered along when they found something new and interesting. Watched horrified that Scully found her daughter, and amazed when Mulder almost killed some one when he watch Scully loss something she could never get back. I've seen the same things you've seen only with different eyes, as some would say. I have no face, so don't come looking for me, but I do live. I live in all of you. Anyone who watches the X-Files and sees something growing, a love, a faith, a hope...A truth that says something that most of us have found...That perhaps the truth is something we don't want to find...but something that we own in ourselves...that spark that makes us as mad as Mulder and as strong as Scully. Some one once told me that the truth is no longer out there, but its here. (motions to hear heart) My truth is in here, what about you? Is the truth you search for in your own life a TV show, or is it something that only you and only two other people own. Those two people are some one you'll never see in a physical form, an the other is the person who will love you for who you are. They don't care what you've done or who your parents are or how much money you have or how beautiful you look. They want you for you.